I hate this time of the year!!! Who knows what it stems from
- being cooped up inside after being outside everyday - all day long during the
summer or the mere fact that snow and cold keeps me isolated. Yeah I know
I'm a heat baby - the hotter the better!!!! This year I feel a bit
isolated from everyone and everything. On the other hand, maybe I'm secluding
myself from others more than usual.
I know one thing
that has helped me this year is meeting up with Robbie and spending time with
him. Even though we broke up almost 2 years ago, there is a piece of my
heart that is stuck on him. And I have to admit, the last time he was
here, I finally felt a closure from our past. And honestly our times
together are grand - nothing in this world can change that. I realize
life has moved on for both of us. Seeing him ride off gave me great
closure to what our life once was. By all means, it's not a bad thing at
all. I can actually say Good-bye to our past and hello to a great future.
I love him as the person he is and look forward to having a wonderful
friendship with him. We always had our own views, now understanding and
accepting those comes into play. I may have lost a wonderful lover. But I
have gained a wonderful friend. And I cherish that.
Throughout the
summer I have made some really great friendships with some really awesome
people!!! Being at the campgrounds almost every weekend this last summer
has really changed me in great lengths. I would have never thought; this one
campground, I started going to over 6 years ago, would have really made so much
of an impact on me. Now that the warmer weather is gone, I can honestly
say I miss being there most of all. There isn't a day that goes by where
the individuals who have touched my life, throughout the years, where the love
and kindness gives me that warm gushy feeling inside. I feel the love and
kindness from those who have entered my life after being at the campgrounds.
I have made plenty of friends with so many different social aspects this
summer. I'm amazed at everyone whom I have been in contact with
throughout the summer. Quite frankly, if you have never been with me
camping, then you need to get out and meet some really awesome people. No
matter what your social status happens to be, there is always someone there you
can connect with. There are so many decent people who go there. But
we all have the same common interest in mind which brings us all together.
I've meet people
from many walks of life and backgrounds. Each person is an individual and each
person has a distinct personality - no matter what, we all have a common denominator
amongst us where we all can relate.
With being away
from my social aspects which I enjoy, I'm finding myself slowly climbing back
into that seclusion of hibernating during the colder months. I'll be
damned if I'm going to let it get to me this year. I found a guy who has peeked
my interest. That's not saying I'm in love or I'm going to run off and
get married any time soon - OH HELL NO!!!! I'm not dead in the head just
yet. Yeah, yeah, I know, I'm leaning a little too far over the edge.
Don't worry, I have a grip - I just want to see what's coming up ahead.
For everyone who
knows me, I deal with my life day by day, looking for the next adventure!
Living on the edge. As my friend Ted often said to me; "Perry,
I wish I could live life like you do." In return I always say
"Ted, I wish I could live life like you do."
(I don't know
what it is, but every time I start writing a personal blog, someone has to come
along with their personal aspects which inflict my train of thought; which
throws me so off track in my thought process. So, if this whole blog goes
astray - you know someone has me side tracked - AGAIN!!!)
No matter the
geographical distance between all my friends and myself, there is always closeness
between us. Common desires, interests, hobbies, views and thought process
creating a huge pool of diversity amongst us. I learn a great deal from
all my friends. In some aspects, I think someone created all the
different holidays this time of year so we can all connect with those who have
touched our lives.
Well, I salute all
my good friends - and the bad ones too!!! If it wasn't for you, I would
not be the person I am today. So lift up your glass, gulp that drink
down. Slam the glass on the bar and tell the bartender that Perry said you "get a free refill" and to pour you another one. So,
remember my dear friends, don't let this time of year get you down. Just
remember, no matter where you are or what you're doing - your friends helped
create the person you are today, and with all the craziness which you personally add to it, you're
an awesome individual.
I give you all my
crazy love! Now smile, because you're one of the crazy ones who helped
create the person I am today.
